I woke up this morning expecting to not do much of nothing other than the last of the laundry, which I didn't even touch. Tori and I went to the mall to do some window shopping but really didn't stay very long. I really enjoy spending time with her when she is not being a smart ass teenager. She can be a lot of fun. When she is being fun and not being the butthead she can be sometimes, she reminds me how fun life can be. She is so full of life and her smile is very contagious. I enjoy hearing about her life, school and friends. Sometimes her stories are so dang funny I have to laugh at her for being such a goof. I wish the boys wanted to hang around me like she does. Oh they want me when they want something or to complain at me. Cody is getting older so I understand it somewhat but I want to hear about his life and he just doesn't like to talk to me like he does Gary, but Gary understands him better than I do. I'm very glad that he has Gary to talk to but sometimes I want that relationship with my son. Shelby is busy right now being a 12 year old. A 12 year old that is about to drive me crazy. I don't know what is wrong with this kid. He stays in trouble at school, he will not do his work and is extremely disrespectful to his teachers. I have put him in the Explorer program and I'm hoping that it will do him some good. We have taken everything away from him and he is pretty well grounded forever at this point and nothing is working. He is failing all his classes and refuses to do anything to improve himself at all. I don't know what to do with him right now. I'm praying that it is the age but I believe that if we let it go and let up on him that the behavior will continue. I have to get him figured out and quick. I love him but right now he's about to drive me crazy.

Tomorrow I have a meeting at work. I'm not looking forward to this meeting and would really like to skip it but its mandatory and I'm afraid that it is going to turn into a yelling match and some how I will be the bad guy again. What I hope is that I get a call in a couple of days from one of these places I applied for an interview and maybe a new job in my future. I have to do something to be happy again and right now I'm not happy but have to keep on till something better comes along.